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::: spoiler talking about ftm transition, dysphoria bit confusing to me seeing how many FTMs (granted I'm sure a lot of the people who are this way are NB, there are some trans men too though) plan to, or do, or think going off T is fine. I saw a post of someone who described himself (themself? Forgot to check pronouns I'll just use he/him) as ftm and was asking the community about T and if you "had" to be on it permanently. Tons and tons of comments from people who are female to male saying they hopped off after a few years, or knew a lot of people who did, even trans men. Saying that after 2-5 years on T you really can't tell. I've known one trans man and he said he's been on and off T too. As I understand, a fairly common thing to get pushed in the community is keeping one or both ovaries so you can have E even if you can't get or decide to hop off T.

Now obviously, obviously I know this is probably isn't the majority, most of the people who do this are probably NB or butch, whatever. But its still very confusing for me to go on the "opposite" sex hormone for years and not feel terrible, and then go back and still not feel terrible? Like I just remember feeling awful on T and I imagine cis women would too, and I know lots of binary trans men feel the same way about their hormones. So how are these people just full on dosing T until they look like a man and then going back on E willingly??

Also how dysphoria inducing for me for everyone to be like, "oh yea 2-5 years on T and you'll look like a man forever. Sure there's some changes from E but its slight.". Just damn it. Wish I was transitioning to the hormone that actually makes you look like your gender. :::

::: spoiler spoiler Saw this video of someone dunking on a chud doing one of those, "you can't always tell" things. Chud got 5/6 wrong.

Anyway I got them all right and I have never been more upset at being right. I'm wormed chat.

Worst thing to be right about coming in about 8-10 years. I don't have a date set that I know I won't be passing or have a passing voice by or that'd be it. :::

Notices hole in sock.

"Oh for fuck sake....."

The thought of finally being able to start hormones is scaring me shitless tbh.

It seems like the majority of trans people where I live have some kind of support system even if it’s just one person. I don’t have that. I have no partner, no friends in real life I can trust, definitely not family. I am quite literally alone in all of this. Between being trans and badly neurodivergent I don’t think I was made for this world.

huge comfy backpack containing everything i could possibly need cute handbag and i'll just suffer

I've met such lovely people through Hexbear, I'm so glad I found this place.

trans mega

One part of the day I'll be slightly uncomfortable with myself but then the other part I'm like "Dress go spinny!"

Like OH MY GOD STICK WITH THE LATTER!

If BFV Audrey doesn't end up being trans I'm going to fed post

damn life do be a lot more worth living after learning to manage my anxieties

Trying to take better care of my hair, got a bunch of new products and while the frizz is still more than I'd like it's so much better and it always smells like coconut now 😌

Nothing interesting in my life is happening right now if you ignore the part where I'm feeling happy and intimate with wifey. I think that's a good place to be.

Call of Duty Black Ops but not only is the whole game gender bent, but JFK is replaced with May Marigold from RWBY.

hello all

cracked my phone's screen protector because of my bad habit of lightly chomping my phone when embarrassed

I never thought I'd say this, but going to bed at 9 is goated, got 8 hours of sleep plus two hours with gf this morning. Am I going to defect to the early morning gang?

I tried growing some oyster mushrooms recently. Unfortunately the spore syringe I got was missing a proper needle so when I injected it, the jars got contaminated

Fortunately the other mushrooms are not having that issue and are colonizing quite nicely.

We're gonna trans, trans, trans, our gender

You know together we're transing

Gonna be, gonna be transing

Oh, oh, oh

Trans, trans, trans, with our hormones

Gonna be, gonna be transing

^I'm^ ^not^ ^sorry^

Rebuilding my swag and it factor brick by brick

It's actually transphobic to make me go to work tonight

Hi lovely trans ppl in my phone how worried do I have to be about my stomach sleeping habits as a trans girl now developing breasts?? Will the soreness that comes with them growing go away?

transgender

many such cases!

Finally got a chance to talk to my friend and come out to him, it went really well! He's always super busy with work and has an infant to take care of, so it took a few tries before he had the time to actually talk for more than a few minutes. He was really supportive and let me say what I needed to, then had a few very reasonable and respectful questions. He was really excited to ask about my new name and said he thought it suited me well. He recently had to help come up with a name for a person so we commiserated on the difficulty lol. We got to joke around a bit and he made the whole conversation really easy for me.

I don't have many friends that I regularly keep up with, but I'm always so glad that the ones I do are so fucking cool

Looking for facial hair removal ideas (not HRT).

My blood test results (taken near trough, of course) had my estradiol at a measly 68 pg/mL, yet my total testosterone is down to 30 ng/dL (below the 50 ng/dL threshold for testosterone suppression). Curious.

Chat, what does this mean?

(voice of a girl using pliers to rip out hangnails) im so butch

First time accepting being trans: I'll learn how to do cute dances and i'll dress up like those arab dancers!

Me now (almost ten years later): I wish the pain would stop.

@Disaster_of_Passion@hexbear.net

I love mushrooms the life form. About a year ago I started growing oysters and lions manes and it has been a fun and delicious science project. Dried lions mane is now our goto umami source. I've been growing them on masters mix, but in the future I want to try growing lions manes on pure rye berries so that I can dry and grind up the whole block, instead of just the fruit.

I started cultivating and actively spreading wine cap mushrooms out in the garden a few years ago and that has been good too. They chew through woodchips to make soil, and sometimes the shrooms get enormous. The biggest one of those I've grown was well over a foot wide. The cap was bigger than a dinner plate. They're less tasty than oysters or lions manes but it's pretty satisfying to literally pick a wheelbarrow full of them in the springtime.

Oh this is the trans mega thread. Well, everyone should transition into someone who likes mushrooms. Even if you don't eat them, they are super cool. Also I recall from braiding sweetgrass that the anishinaabe word for the force that compels mushrooms to rise in the night, anglicized as puhpowee, also refers to the force that causes other mushroom like shafts to rise in the night.

Listening to Girly Girl Productions and feeling as if i accidentally killed the man i was supposed to be when my egg cracked and being kinda giddy about how i just ended that guy

Lunch with my boss went very well :) he's expecting things will take me a long time to really get up to speed and will give me lots of patience until then. Also this week I'm finally getting to start real work. Much more satisfying.

::: spoiler CW: SH I was trying to read a simple illustrated book on parts work. When I got to the part about parts mapping, my mind started compelling me to stop reading and I compulsively punched myself in the face a few times until I closed the PDF viewer.

Chat, am I cooked? :::

screaming at trans people I know to go get their fucking hormones

I fear this was me (but reversed ofc) for a while in the beginning stages of this.

::: spoiler evergreen greentext :::

Grocery List

• Limes
• Bigass whole wheat bread (wide not long)
• Like 12 of those single serve kitty food things

Theres probably more but Ill think of it later

Going to be saying this to myself for days

Did an interview today and I think it went okay. I really hope I get it, I haven't had a job since earlier this year and it would just be nice to finally help my family with rent. Also the job is unionized so that's pretty sweet if I get it

::: spoiler misandry, sv

:::

haven't wifeposted in a little but rest assured that i love my wife tremendously and she's so amazing and beautiful and makes me happy every day just by being her

I don't know wtf is wrong with me lately but I've been crying, sometimes multiple times a day. And it's just a lot.

Lunch with my boss tomorrow, bit nervous about that. Especially because I'm even weirder when I'm nervous. I don't know him very well at all yet. I'm always so fucking weird idk what my problem is. I swear I'm normal when I get comfy

ma’am’ed at the 7/11

::: spoiler Something Glorious happened! (CW NFSW, discussion of sex) My partner started her transition 5 years before mine (2 years). She is able to have multiple whole body orgasms back to back, and when she is aroused enough not requiring genital stimulation. I've been talking to her about how she gets there and what it's like.

I have previously had multiple orgasms from genital stimulation since transitioning, though it's definitely hit or miss. I know I can get multiple mini-orgasms from prostate stimulation, and I find certain types of mild painful stimulus helpful for orgasming and reaching climax (nipple teasing/torture). So I've got a good grasp on how orgasm can feel and be different.

Sunday night, with the right combo of circumstances though I managed to get into a multiple orgasm zone like her for the first time ever, she and my girlfriends were using a wartenberg wheel, tickling and pinching me in certain places, and I started having body shuddery orgasm without direct genital stimulation.

Initially I had my wrist and feet tied to the bed, but as it went on they detached my hand rope, so my hands were still tied but not fixed to the bed. I started curling into the fetal position as a barely sentient, shuddering and leaky mess, even a thumb pushed against my lateral spine would cause an orgasm.

It fucken ruled, I lost complete sense of time and I think I had dozens of orgasms.

I saw this thing the other day and having orientation today and introducing myself had me thinking about the weirdness of introducing myself with a male name, but my presentation already shifting. Long hair, talking quieter, shaving, etc. A year on estrogen.

I'm becoming addicted to Splatoon again

I wish I knew more people that also play

Does anyone know a good crypto wallet or anything about crypto? Seems most of the DIY sites only accept crypto so will need to set a wallet up. I admit to being very ignorant about the whole ordeal

My workplace is really lib so a weekly news highlight email included a substack column about how swag the midterms went and how good a job women did. It just kinda pissed me off though.

To be fair the substack is abortion oriented and in that context the midterms were a big success, with "failures" being stretch goals like the Idaho ballot measure.

But I can't help feeling othered when they're talking about how cool it is that Annie Andrews is the first woman senator representing South Carolina as if she didn't throw trans people (trans girls specifically) under the bus. Ironically the column mentioned targeting of trans children as an exclusively Republican affair. Extolling the elections as a moral win while people like Annie Andrews are recanting previous support for political gain.

When the author talks about women, I can sense the she isn't talking about me, and that hurts. But it makes me feel like a callous moid to see this article and think "hey what about me!! You didn't pay attention to me!!" Like that male socialization people say is woven into the fiber of my being (This is not helped by my problems with other elements of the article's examination of electoral demographics in the service of promoting reproductive rights as the primary factor when I don't think that's a defensible position. It makes me feel like a contrarian chud)

Ugh something to talk about in therapy tomorrow

Wife says "we'll get there" in response to selling one of her kidneys to pay for my srs, I thought we were already there :kitty-cri:

In terms of edible fungus mushrooms specifically refer to ones with a gilled cap, so this week morel and truffleheads can LOG OFF

How dare you besmirch the fine name of the porcini, this is anti-Italian discrimination!

I love how grey and november-y it is outside today. So rainy and cold and miserable. Makes me want to go out for a run.

Flannel sheets.

I got my blood test results back and turns out my estradiol levels are in the female range anyway? My testosterone is only slightly lower than “normal” and my progesterone levels are still in the “normal male range” too.

Can someone more well versed in biology and hormonal stuff tells me if this affects how I’d go about starting HRT in any way?

EDIT: Ignore. Misread my results. All my hormones are still in the male range rip.

morel and truffleheads can LOG OFF

this is a morel outrage!

muscular women though

I love being sick. I love having to breathe manually.

There's still so much left on my vial. I thought I was going to have to buy perlutan at the farmacy soon. I think I'm still going to try to get a dose just to make sure I can and won't be left without hormones.

Jet turbine intake

::: spoiler depression I think I gave up on everything

All my efforts now are meaningless, turning the pages on a burning book as if I'm reading anything, I'll have no one, I'll be afraid, surrounded by parasites. I have nothing I'll have nothing, I ca!ct even have little treats to forget, nothing is loud enough anymore. I hear this world and it wants me out. :::

I started a new job and am now really exhausted. I'm not sure how long I can keep this up

down with cis

up with trans

::: spoiler Relationship(??) rambling Got a thing going on with a friend and I’ve got no idea what it is or where it’s going.

We’ve only known each other for a few months but we’ve already gotten so close. We text each other good morning everyday, we’re on call multiple times a week, and once a week we have dinner together over video chat. I know how that sounds written out but somehow it doesn’t feel romantic, like we’re just close friends. But idk what “romantic” should even feel like, I’ve only been in one relationship and it was online and not very serious, we never even met up irl.

I guess part of me can’t really wrap my head around why she’d like me so despite all the signs my brain still feels like “naw there’s no way she’s interested in you”. She’s so much more put together than I am. She’s already settled in her career, she’s got tons of friends, multiple hobbies, etc.. Meanwhile I’m still slogging through college cause I had to take a multi year break after getting my financial support pulled out from under me and between work and school I’ve only got surface level interests and few connections.

I really don’t want to fuck this up over my insecurities. I’ve fallen for her in a way I’ve never experienced before. I’ve had crushes and infatuations before but nothing like this. This is like the only thing that’s been occupying my mind for months. I hope it works out. I hope for it more than anything I’ve ever hoped for before.

This whole situation has kinda jolted me out of years long depressive episode. I’ve already been getting better over the course of the year but I’ve felt so much more alive since meeting her.

Anyway rambling done I need to get back to work before the fire me :::

I have much room for mushrooms

Hello

I have awoken at a strange hour.

saw new godzilla, was good, death to amerikkka