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traaaaaaannnnnnnnnnsThe Kiss - 1897
Edvard Munch is a Norwegian born expressionist painter. His best-known work, The Scream, has become one of the most iconic images of world art. In the late 20th century, he played a great role in German expressionism and the art form that later followed; namely because of the strong mental anguish that was displayed in many of the pieces that he created.
Edvard Munch was born in Norway in 1863, and was raised in Christiania (known as Oslo today). He was related to famous painters and artists in their own right, Jacob Munch (painter), and Peter Munch (historian). Only a few years after he was born, Edvard Munch's mother died of tuberculosis in 1868, and he was raised by his father. Edvard's father suffered from mental illness, and this played a role in the way he and his siblings were raised. Their father raised them with the fears of deep-seated issues, which is part of the reason why the work of Edvard Munch took a deeper tone, and why the artist was known to have so many repressed emotions as he grew up.
In 1885, Edvard Munch traveled to Paris, and was extremely influenced by Impressionist such as Claude Monet, Neo-Impressionist Georges Seurat, and followed by the Post-Impressionists Vincent van Gogh, Paul Cezanne, and Paul Gauguin. In fact, the main style of Munch's work is post-impressionism, and focused on this style.
From about 1892, to 1908, Munch split most of his time between Paris and Berlin; it was in 1909 that he decided to return to his hometown, and go back to Norway. During this period, much of the work that was created by Edvard Munch depicted his interest in nature, and it was also noted that the tones and colors that he used in these pieces, did add more color, and seemed a bit more cheerful, than most of the previous works he had created in years past. The pessimistic toning which was quite prominent in much of his earlier works, had faded quite a bit, and it seems he took more of a colorful, playful, and fun tone with the pieces that he was creating, as opposed to the dark and somber style which he tended to work with earlier on during the course of his career. From this period, up to his death, Edvard Munch remained in Norway, and much of his work that was created from this period on, seemed to take on the similar, colorful approach which he had adopted, since returning home in 1909.
A majority of the works which Edvard Munch created, were referred to as the style known as symbolism. This is mainly because of the fact that the paintings he made focused on the internal view of the objects, as opposed to the exterior, and what the eye could see. Symbolist painters believed that art should reflect an emotion or idea rather than represent the natural world in the objective, quasi-scientific manner embodied by Realism and Impressionism. In painting, Symbolism represents a synthesis of form and feeling, of reality and the artist's inner subjectivity. Along with Austrian artist Gustav Klimt, Edvard Munch is considered as the most prominent Symbolist painters of 20th century.
Many of Munch's works depict life and death scenes, love and terror, and the feeling of loneliness was often a feeling which viewers would note that his work patterns focused on. These emotions were depicted by the contrasting lines, the darker colors, blocks of color, somber tones, and a concise and exaggerated form, which depicted the darker side of the art which he was designing. Munch is often and rightly compared with Van Gogh, who was one of the first artists to paint what the French artist called "the mysterious centers of the mind." But perhaps a more overreaching influence was Sigmund Freud, a very close contemporary. Freud explained much human behavior by relating it to childhood experiences. Munch saw his mother die of tuberculosis when he was 5, and his sister Sophie died of the same disease when he was 14. Munch gives the By the Death Bed and Death in the Sickroom a universal cast by not specifically depicting what he had witnessed. Several versions of The Sick Child are surely his sister.
Edvard Munch passed away in 1944, in a small town which was just outside of his home town in Oslo. Upon his death, the works which he had created, were not given to family, but they were instead donated to the Norwegian government, and were placed in museums, in shows, and in various local public buildings in Norway. In fact, after his death, more than 1000 paintings that Edvard Munch had created were donated to the government. In addition to the paintings that he had created during the course of his career, all other art forms he created were also donated to the government. A total of 15,400 prints were donated, 4500 drawings and water-color art was donated, and six sculptures which Edvard Munch had created, were all turned over to the Oslo government, and were used as display pieces in many locations.
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I told my parents not to come to my graduation (im getting my undergrad woohoo!) and this is a good thing.
::: spoiler mentions of parental abuse
I sorta haven't talked about it with anyone.
I explained to my mom that I just wanted it to be this way... and also told her, in the gentlest terms possible, that they were/are abusive and Im not ready to reconcile yet. It went over well but I cant help but be dissapointed at how apathetic the reaction was. Its not like I wanted it to be a big fight or anything but I wasn't prepared for it to be this easy. I wasnt expecting the conversation to get added to the "evidence they dont give a shit about me" pile. :::
I don't really care that Jet is both a pre-war drug and a post war invention in the Fallout series. Dope, white and speed can all refer to completely different drugs. Why not jet.
getheadvard buttmunch
Love and Pain - 1893
Sometimes I really worry things won't work out too.
Four years has already been a long time to correct things and I have at least three or four more to go. When I feel like this, I really try to think about everyone before me who's had to wait longer. Their stories can inspire me. Being alive in a time and where something can happen means something. It's not hopeless.
Or maybe I'm just trying to talk myself out of crying until I get home from work lol
::: spoiler The annoying thing about asking for CWs A coworker showed me a really triggering article today and I could only say don't show me that. Explaining what to look out for gives context on my very specific and personally embarrassing (sometimes humiliating) trauma.
Ugh writing that last part actually brought the tears :::
I’ve cried over work stuff twice in the last few days, are the shots finally working
sounds like it, but I hope work stops being so stressful :/
I do tooooo, it sucks. Thankfully talking with my partner helped a bit and made me realize the workload is more my bosses’ fault than a reflection of me as a worker. Still feel on edge, but not quite as bad as before :) ty friend
Feeling like Jesse pinkman but instead of doing a line of coke to psyche myself up it's listening to MCR, ~~burn down a house~~ join a union
::: spoiler continued mental health problems
I'm going to be perfectly real. The idea of my parents being against me has been the anvil that broke the camel's back. Things were already difficult enough for me in mental health terms, but little by little, I was making progress.
However, that shit was the thing that really pushed me over an invisible line. Too much. Now I have a severe mental block. I feel like I can't do ... anything anymore. Even making friends or talking to people over text makes me feel wrong.
I know this is a cultural thing. But I feel so indebted to my parents. If they want to protect their reputation within the extended family, then is staying in the closet not something I should do? If they demand for me to mutilate myself to fulfill their wishes, be in a "cis"het marriage as a "man", what argument do I have to resist? How else could I repay my debt? And if I don't repay my debt, how could I steal from my own parents? How could I make my wife suffer through an unhappy marriage? Gotta keep up the act as well as possible. The children need to be taken care of too.
I feel I can only wait for everyone who has a mortal tie with me to die so I can live my own life. Alas I'm not an immortal with a lifespan in the 1000s of years. I'll die before that happens. It's kind of comforting the idea. That I'll die so I never need to aspire to anything.
:::
I do not want to feel any of these emotions. I wish I could burn them out of me, strangle them
I want to play Persona 6
I have this week off from classes. But I have no money or plans and I have no idea what to do with myself. I spent all day yesterday deep cleaning my area since I haven't had a chance in a while but that's not exactly relaxing.
I love munch. There are a bunch of his paintings of redheaded women loving and leaving him at his museum in Oslo. Man had a ROUGH relationship. My favorite painting of his is his massive mural of The Sun. I feel like it captures his love for nature in a way I resonate with
It's a gorgeous day out. I think I'm gonna go get some nice food and have a picnic.
::: spoiler spoiler Damn, fucking sad and down again. Fuck me. :::
Would you still be up for trying out voice calls in matrix at some point? Maybe we can try to make it work this week?
Yes, I would like that. Thank you. I don't think I can today but this week is fairly empty for me. We should.
Yay! My week is pretty busy but I think Friday is free. As well as earlier in the day tomorrow and I think Thursday.
Let's make our own support group, with Blackjack and trans-tankies.
This sounds like tracha if we added blackjack to it. It would be cool if it had voice channels that we could just hop into like discord. But I think the calling feature can work like that in rooms where it's just one channel per room.
Well, there are safety reasons for not having voice on tracha, aren't there? I'm pretty sure it's against the rules to send audio
Iirc we can't send voice memos cause anybody can listen who's in the server. Calls should require actually joining to listen. But yeah I don't remember the specifics of the policy so if have to check.
While combing my hair I realised!
I have neck lenght hair now, not ear length as I kept thinking!
The Day After - 1895
I got a plan for coming out to my parents. Idk if it'll work well, but I'll be doing it with a gift and in a very subtle way. I'll sign it with from your daughter "my new name"
Nice, hope it goes well for you. Thought about coming out with a note and signing it with my new name but ultimately chickened out.
Maybe I'll chicken out too. But well, let's see how it goes
I already want to go home from work bleh
8 more hours to go
Here's something that's made me too sad for a while.
I really hate that I can't actually be friends with "older" (older then me) women. Or just people in general but I don't care much for being friends with guys. Like I've had a few women in my life who are great, and I've talked a lot with and they've said I can talk about whatever ect.. they're very smart, empathetic, good listeners everything. And at least one I remember called herself my friend. But I do not actually feel like we're friends. They don't (or very rarely) message me first, or talk about their own lives, or anything like that. Even when I ask. And then I'll talk to someone they actually appear to be friends with and they'll be like, "oh yea, she has X going on", "Oh yea when she did Y".
Its not reasonable to be this upset about it but it makes me so sad. Like its no one's fault really, of course someone in a different stage of life isn't going to be close to me, its just so... like I don't have many people right. And then they listen, and talk, and are great people. Even calling themselves my friend. But they aren't really.
And then the people my age do not understand, do not empathize, they are not safe like real adults are.
>get on vc with one of my younger friends
>dude, man, guy
bruh
why is this like this. Have hardly done anything today. Just nothing to do. Not even a particularly bad day. Life is just fuckin, boring and sucky. and dysphoric.
On days like these, you can try cooking. Make yourself some rice and kidney beans.
Life fucking sucks.
Is it trans culture to feel like there's a slur people should be calling you but you were never able to figure out what it was supposed to be
bed rotting needs to be an acceptable reason for PTO
Mental health day, but bosses can be little tyrants about that too sometimes.
It's what Stalin would have wanted!
She’s just like me fr
couldn't convict
Is this real?
I mean its an actual video, in that sense its real.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wAYjPPE0YMo
I did not watch the whole thing but if you skip to the start of the interrogation (21:20) he does use a new name and he/him. Didn't watch the video though, I don't know why he killed his mom. Wouldn't shock me if this is click/rage bait. I'd imagine there are more factors then just her being transphobic.
A lot of these bodycam and criminal justice channels tend to be very reactionary and spread fear and hatred of vulnerable groups. I suspect, given the title, that this is one of them.
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:
Gonna try testing into a union soon, apprenticeship for HVAC hope it goes well. Nervous, I'm signed for the testing at least. 4 of them then interview then drug test if I get in. Been hardly able to do stuff I enjoyed like reading lately same with rest of my interests
Been hardly able to do stuff I enjoyed like reading lately same with rest of my interests
yet you can still find time to yap about sonic 🙄
~jk\ ❤️\ u\ 😚~
I can always make time for you tho
sonic is anarchist theory so i'll allow it
That's why you're the realest
the scream, 1908
the original crying wojak
We can trans if we want to
We can leave your friends behind
'Cause your friends don't trans
And if they don't trans
Well they're no friends of mine
Hiiiiiiiiii
What a day.
Morning to evening, studying for exam. Night time, exam. Now my brain is cooked.
Best part is, I gotta repeat this process tommorow, and on wednesday too.
But most importantly, I love all my trans comrades!
Firm handshakes and cuddles for everyone!
firm cuddles 🤔
Would ... would that not be gay ?
yes but that just makes it better tbh
hugs back
How was your day busgirl?
It's been pretty good! My girlfriend called me while I was getting ready for work which was a welcome suprise. I made myself a nice strong cup of coffee to start the day. Work was slow, started a new med today for nerve pain( duloxetine) but it also might help with my depression and being even just a few hours on it already seems to be the case. Gonna go home and make some dinner; how are you?
Oh just the usual. Every morning I convince myself that life is worth living then go about my lonely day. Currently suffering insomnia and coughing.
But there's good parts too. I passed a difficult course with a decent grade.
Awesome! I hope things get better for you
Things will get better for me. And it starts with learning how to deal properly style my hair which is longer than I realised.
Today's my first day of work back noooo 😭
Im interviewing at a peds place later this week, maybe itll be nicer
Every time I have a work meeting I'm shocked I was hired here. Literally everyone else seems to be better at this job than I lmao
Almost textbook presentation of imposter syndrome ☝️
Lolita fashion is starting to look appealing, i think id enjoy dressing up like that
Ironically I have actually just started to begin dressing this way after wanting to for years now.
You should talk to seryph on tracha, she's big into that and would be great to help you out.
Whats tracha?
Our matrix (bit like discord) server!
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ooh, ty!
How do you join whenever I click on any links it brings me to scammy porn ads
That's very weird. Even without ublock enabled, nothing looks like it should be showing ads?
ⓘ This user is suspected of being a cat. Please report any suspicious behavior.
Clean Chrome install has ads, you can scroll though
Yeah. I can reproduced that. But links brining you to somewhere they aren't supposed to doesn't happen to me.
ⓘ This user is suspected of being a cat. Please report any suspicious behavior.
Huh, I'll have to look at the page with ublock later.
https://matrix.to/#/#tracha-space:matrix.org
Uh but basically make a matrix account, join this space. I use fluffychat on mobile and element on desktop.
Now it's time to get into visual kei too! Mana-sama forever!
Sure, that does seem p cool too :3
Hard to say if most of the people in my life are actually intentionally misunderstanding me like it feels like or if I'm just bad at communicating myself.
Also hard to say if most of the people in my life actually don't value me and my thoughts and ideas like it feels like, or if I'm actually devoid of any good ideas.
- U have good ideas. I've heard some of them.
- People could be misunderstanding you, and communication could be hard, at the same time. I know I struggle a lot where something is super clear in my head but then saying it it comes out in a very strange way, where I dont really make sense to people (or even myself sometimes). That being said, I've heard you communicate complex ideas just fine, so uh yeah ur not bad at communicating things
Repost but I got no comments in the general thread a month ago and was reminded of them again:
When do you just let a ghost be a ghost? I've been seeing this nb very casually for about half a year, maybe a bit longer. It was usually us meeting up once a month for primarily physical connects, they lived pretty far away and had to drive into the city. But they were also a very principled leftist and I enjoyed our time together. Whenever we left it was also a "that was amazing, lets not let it be a month before we see each other again," etc. But inevitably I'd go a month without hearing from them before getting a "sorry! Life is crazy! Are you free saturday?" Text. Last time things felt particularly good/like I was going to maybe be seeing more of them, but that was almost 4 months ago now. I've been sending them a text once a month now since then, and haven't got anything back. I'm considering reaching out on instagram, where we don't follow each other, but I don't wanna be a creep/stalker. I guess I'm just worried cuz I've had friends' phones break/numbers change unexpectedly and assumed they wanted nothing to do with me, only to bump into them and have it all be a big misunderstanding. Bweh.
Call their phone if it rings they most likely haven't changed it
I've been sending them a text once a month now since then, and haven't got anything back.
Before then TBH
So you think more effort would be creepy?
I mean idk, probably not. But I'd let someone go before 4 monthly texts. Not responding at all seems really rude to me, idk. I don't think messaging on insta is a bad idea though because maybe something happened with their phone? But I'd definitely read that as them not wanting anything to do with me.
I definitely have problems letting people go, not really in a creepy way just a "if we were ever close I will still think about you 5/10/20 years down the line and will probably reach out." I let people who like, Actually Break Up With Me off of that, but this just felt so strange. I was kinda picking up vibes that I was just a D appointment for them, but I wanted to believe if that were true they would've just told me.
Yea me too. I've been really sad the last two weeks because this person from 5 years ago hasn't messaged me back.. idk. I think about people from the past a lot too.
I would say give them a call maybe leave a voicemail
Just call or reach out. See what's up. You aren't being a stalker if you already had their info beforehand.
So you think more effort would be creepy?
Eh ....
Not really. You already did stuff together. It's not like you're a stranger to them
Oh sorry I meant to respond to a more vaguely phrased response. I probably will just reach out on insta; calling feels really intimate, particularly if they pick up and then have to have a weird breakup convo over the phone they were probably trying to avoid altogether.
Just ask hey do you still wanna hangout or part ways
I came out as trans this past weekend and then had one of the best weekends of my life 🙂 Lots of work ahead still, but that feels like the hardest part behind me 🥳
Amazing work!
Help, my friend is saying and doing the most egg things ever
I think I should make looksmaxxing my new thing. Getting hot should fix all my problems right?
Call me Clavicul-her
Diy FFS w a hammer and sandpaper
::: spoiler cw bodily harm
Use the prying part to cut and peel back the skin, the sandpaper to sand down the jawbone and chin, and the hammery bit to reduce the forehead. Surgeons got nothing on me. :::
I wish all trans friends a good week. Remember to drink a lot of hydrogen hydroxide, take you hormones and organize
I'll compromise with hydrogen peroxide
As long as you take your hormones and organize
Upon further inspection, hydrogen peroxide is not to be consumed. Unless you're a lib then you're free to do what you want, don't listen to the tankies
Foiled again
Transgender reporting in for posting.
Edvard Mvnch
Trve kvlt painting
My hair looks so fucking shit. One of two things I even kinda like about my body and it looks like shit. There's all these little loose hairs sticking out, the ends look like shit even though I just trimmed them, it's not even, I just look terrible. But getting it cut off makes me feel so sad and I don't want to do that. And also I'm terribly depressed and miserable so taking proper care of it is so much work.
Did you get a haircut? How long was it since you got one? It might be a good idea to get one, it will make your hair look way better. Just ask them to not cut it too much, because you want to have long hair.
Two years, trimmed the ends a few times though. I'll get one soon...
down with cis
Down with cis!
DOEN WITH CIS
Down with cis!
Down with cis!
down with cis >:3
down with cis!
Up with trans!
Up with trans
Up with trans!
Up with trans!
UP WITH TRANS
up with trans :o
up with trans!
up with trans!!
You gotta know when to hold em
know when to fold em
I dont know when to walk away, or even when to run...
I'm trans FYI
Starting the week by watching episode 1 of Awajima Hyakkei before my boss gets in. Lovely start, though I'm hoping the anthology has some outright happier stories too. Can't wait for the next episode.
Ahh, yuri
